In a fix

These days clouds of uncertainty are raining heavily over my bed. My college is gonna be over in few months and now I am in a quandary….What’s Next!!!. Nothing is planned. I donno what I am going to do after graduation. A job or an MBA. I donno where am I am headed. Hell…there are a zillion things I don’t know. I just could not concentrate on anything. Nothing seems to amuse me these days. I think that song of Greenday would fit perfectly on my situation….” I walk a lonely road the only one I have ever known…. don’t know where it goes….still I walk alone…na na”.Well still there is a happy feeling that at least now I am going to have a graduation degree. It looked to me in the past that this college is never gonna end. I don’t think it was worth coming to this college. Finally naam ka engineer ab ban jaunga. Past three and a half years were like hell for me. I am eagerly waiting to get the hell outta my college. Staying in a college for 4 years is too much man. Now I am going to have a chance to do something new. I have always liked going to new places…making new friends. I just can’t stay at a particular place for long period of time. I don’t know how others manages to do so. I wonder how am I gonna to stick to a particular company. Pata nai kis company ko apna diwala nikalna hai mujhe rakh kar. Also I can’t do that bloody 9-5 naukri I don’t want to become a moron like others. I want a job which would take me to different parts of the world. I cherish going to new places and have a feel of different cultures. I wonder whether my desires would get fulfilled or not. Let’s see. I am trying to remain optimistic assuring myself by thinking that God has something in mind for each and every one of us ( If there’s a God ).See how optimistic I am J. Hell I am not the worst person alive on this earth…so waiting for my time to come to seize the opportunity as it comes my way. This world never gives you anything …you have to snatch it from others.

Human Nature

I have a habit of pondering over bizarre things. This is the latest one that I have to offer. Yesterday while I was sitting in my balcony I was trying to figure out why we do not value the things we posses and always crave for the things which are hard to get. Is it due to insatiable yearnings of ours? So, I introspected myself and found out that I was no different from others. I can give you plethora of examples from my life too…I think nearly 5 years ago while I was in 12th I desperately wanted to get into an engineering ( which I am in right now ) college. I think that at that point of time this was the only thing which I cared about. I worked day and night to achieve my aim and then the hard work paid off. But do you want to know what’s my perspective now…I don’t give a damn that I am a student of this college…and can you believe I was dying to get into it. I think this is the best example that I can put in front of you people to support my topic. Just to cite some more examples… I had yearnings to possess cell, lapi, ipod, x-box. Now when I have them I don’t even care about them. So I guess as soon as we are in possession of an item it’s just a matter of days that we stop valuing it. I talked to my friends about it too and I guess we were on the same page. What about you? Are you having any similar views? I bet you are…Well I guess it’s human nature….to chase unfulfilled dreams and to do things which are tabooed. Had there been no such pursuits I think we would have lost the desire to live….What say?

My hit-list ( jerks in my life )

There are many kinds of people I have come across till now. Some were very adorable. N I always get nostalgic when I remember them. On the other side…..some were really a pain in d a**. I curse the day I met them. But then what one can do….society is an amalgam of such kind of personnel.

Here’s a list of some of the persons....without dem my life would have been much better -

1.A professor of my last sem. I hate him more than anyone in this world. Just can’t stand his cocky smile.

2. Two three jerks of my class. They just can’t listen to anybody. Always goes against the wind.

3. A teacher of my school.I hate authoritative bimbo’s like her.

4. All the monkeys who had given me advice in the past….oh u should do this…no no you should not do that….suckers who was asking for your bloody opinions. I just hate advices and opinions. Hell I would do whatever I want to do. I just don’t like anybody interfering in my life..mind your own goddamn business…will u…

5. All the people who tried to discourage me in the past….n refrained me from doing what I am doing now.

6. This is for the people whom I am yet to meet. You certainly don’t wanna be in this list, do you?

Someone amongst you might be thinking that I am cursing everybody…whom I have left..Well it’s not like that….I love more people than I hate.